Luangpor Teean: The Singular Quality
of an Ordinary Monk
by Vatana Supromajakr, M.D.
If you had had the chance to meet Luangpor
Teean, you would probably have seen him as just another elderly monk,
one who was calm and spoke little, very like other elderly monks that
can be met with in this country. But if you had given some attention to
observing him, you would have noticed that, along with his calmness,
he was at all times very collected, alert and aware of himself.
When we had the chance to
ask him about various problems, we experienced the uniqueness of this
ordinary monk, a person who was nearly illiterate and who emphasized
and taught the single subject of sati (sustained awareness of
oneself) at all times. He exhibited very clear wisdom of the most
penetrating kind in responding to our questions. His answers to all
questions were remarkable to such an extent that we could label it
'incredible' that a person lacking the formal education that we so
value had the ability to answer and explain in a way that was at once
so simple, clear, deeply meaningful, precise and clearly
understandable, explanations capable of fully putting our doubts to
rest.
How we label or
categorize Luangpor Teean is of no importance. What is important is his
teaching. His answers, even to very simple and basic questions, are
full of value, just like the lighting of a lamp in a dark place: they
dispel the darkness, creating a brightness that helps us to see the way
and gives rise to the illumination of wisdom. His answers will be of
benefit, to a greater or lesser extent, to those who aspire and are in
search, those who are lost in darkness: unknowing, doubtful, not
understanding.
During the final five
years of Luangpor Teean's life, I and my medical colleagues who were
caring for him asked him questions from time to time in order to ease
our doubts. The following answers, teachings and views have been
gathered and recorded in order to make them available to those who
might find them of use. There is no intention here to praise or display
devotion to Luangpor Teean, nor to promote or try to create faith in
him: it is the reader's responsibility to consider the following with
deliberation and discrimination, to examine and understand by oneself
-- this is a responsibility and a right that we should all respect.
1. Religion
Luangpor Teean said of religion that
"religion is the person". When we heard or read this, we failed to
understand, therefore we asked him, "Is religion really 'the person' or
not?"
He answered as follows: "'Religion' is merely a
word that we use to label the teaching of a person by a person who is
considered to understand the truth or nature of human life. Such
teachings are various. If we speak of 'religion', it might give rise to
doubts and arguments and disputes, therefore please allow me to not
speak of this. But if you want to know about the actuality, the true
nature of our life (Dhamma), I will tell you; when you have understood,
your doubts about 'religion' will disappear."
2. Why Did He Search For Dhamma?
I once asked Luangpor Teean how it came
about that he was inspired to search for Dhamma. He explained that he
had strictly followed traditional practices his whole life, had
observed the moral precepts devoutly, made merit and practised
generosity at every opportunity, and offered Kathina robes each year,
but that on the last occasion that he had organized the Kathina
offerings, a dispute concerning the merit-making arose between him and
members of his family.
"I therefore," he continued, "considered as
follows: how was it that, having kept the precepts, made merit, and
practised generosity to the fullest, I could still have suffering arise
within my mind? In light of this, I decided from that moment on to seek
true Dhamma, that which would free me from the grasp of dukkha (Suffering)."
3. Dhamma Is Not Clothing
Luangpor Teean once told us that for a long
time he had believed, incorrectly, that Dhamma was something
outside our body, something external like clothing that has to be
sought for and then put on and worn. But in actuality, Dhamma is
already present within us right now.
4. The Study Of Dhamma
Referring to the study of Dhamma, Luangpor
Teean said, "To study the Dhamma merely for the purpose of discussion
and debate is of little use. We have to apply and use it, and practise
it to the fullest, then it will yield great benefit."
5. The Story Of Venerable Ananda
I was always in doubt as to why the
Venerable Ananda, in spite of listening to, hearing and knowing the
teachings of the Buddha (i.e. the Dhamma) more completely than anyone
else, was not fully Awakened to actual Dhamma.
Luangpor Teean explained: "Venerable Ananda knew a
lot about the Buddha, that is true, but he did not yet know himself.
After the Buddha passed away, Ananda studied to really know himself,
and therefore succeeded in attaining full Awakening."
6. Luangpor Teean Teaches "Outside the Texts"?
I once mentioned to Luangpor Teean that, whereas people generally hold strongly to the Tipitaka (the Pali Canon) as the authoritative text when studying Buddhism, when he himself taught he hardly ever mentioned the Tipitaka.
Luangpor pointed out, "The Buddha's Teaching was recorded in the Tipitaka
several hundred years after the Buddha passed away, and this text was
then copied and recopied over a period of thousands of years. The
teachings were probably recorded very well, but it is possible to doubt
that the reader will now understand what those who recorded the
teachings meant. For me to refer merely to the texts all the time would
be like guaranteeing the truth of the claims of another, claims of
which I am not certain. But the things that I tell you I am able to
guarantee, because I speak from my own direct experience.
"The text is like a map: it is suitable for those
who don't know the way to go, or have not yet arrived at the
destination. For one that has arrived, the map no longer means
anything.
"Another point about the Tipitaka is that
it was written in the language used in a certain region of India, and
was consequently appropriate for people from that area or for those who
have learned to read that language. But Dhamma taught by the Buddha is
not something that can be monopolized by anybody: it transcends
language, race, gender, and era. If we really know Dhamma, we will
teach it and express it in our own language, in our own words.
"The study of the Tipitaka is good in
itself, but don't attach to and get lost in the specific words used.
Mangoes, for example, are referred to by different words in different
languages; don't fall into dispute over words and interpretations or
become obsessed with the notion that only one word correctly names the
fruit, while meanwhile neglecting the mango and letting it go rotten.
Anyone that eats a mango must know the actual taste of the fruit, no
matter what name it is given, or even if it is given no name at all."
7. Deceived By Thought
Luangpor Teean said that we human beings
are always thinking, just like the ever-flowing current of a river.
Being lost in and deceived by thought is like scooping out water and
storing it up. But if we have sati (awareness) seeing thought
immediately as it really is, it is like the water flowing freely up and
passing on by. Being lost in and deceived by thought gives rise to
suffering.
8. Suffering
Someone once asked Luangpor Teean to
explain what suffering was. Luangpor placed an object on his hand and
then clenched the hand tightly, making a fist. He then turned the fist
over and opened the hand. Indicating the thing that had dropped from
his hand to the ground, he pointed out, "This is suffering."
The questioner understood immediately that
suffering is a thing that we conceive and assume and then seize hold of
firmly, and that it can be released. Luangpor said that someone who
can understand this quickly is one with wisdom.
9. What Is It Like When "The Rope Breaks"?
In reading Luangpor Teean's account of his
experience of practising Dhamma, it is difficult to understand what is
meant when, in describing the final stage of his practice, he uses the
simile of it being as if a rope that had been stretched tightly between
two posts suddenly broke in the middle and could never again be
reattached.
When questioned about this, Luangpor elaborated:
"Words are merely sounds that are used by convention to mean certain
things, but the words that can explain the 'state' about which you are
asking don't exist. If we were to place a certain amount of white paint
one centimetre away from a similar amount of black paint and to mix
them until they were thoroughly blended, we would name the colour in
the middle 'gray', wouldn't we? But if the white paint were placed ten
metres away from the black paint and the two were gradually mixed until
well-blended, you would find that there were no words to explain the
shade of the colour at any one point in such a way that another person
would know that shade: the colour must be experienced directly.
"Have you ever looked at rain clouds? They appear
to be different shapes and forms. But if we are in an aircraft and fly
into the clouds, we don't see them as we did before we entered.
"There are no words to explain the 'state' you are
asking about: it is beyond language. It's useless speculating or trying
to imagine it, or thinking to oneself that it has to be like this,
like that: you must know for yourself, you must see for yourself, you
must experience it."
10. Trivial Problems
Luangpor Teean once commented that many of the people who came to see him asked him only about trivial
problems, such as how much merit they would acquire by doing
such-and-such, or whether it was true that they would be reborn to a
new life after death, and so on. It was seldom that somebody would ask
what Buddhism really teaches and how that teaching was to be applied in
practice, or would ask what it was that needed to be done in order to
reduce suffering. Luangpor responded only to what he was asked: it
would, he felt, have been inappropriate for him to himself raise and
answer questions of substance.
11. Reality And Supposition
Luangpor Teean said that humans are
long-lived, and think and remember much more than do animals. When
people live together in large communities, it becomes necessary to
establish rules and conventions for the sake of social harmony. As time
passes, however, later generations come to regard these conventions
that have been created by the human mind as being independent reality.
When someone points out that, far from being reality, these things are
actually shared suppositions, most people will refuse to see this: this
refusal is very common.
"What is called 'money', for example, is actually
paper," Luangpor remarked. "When we try to use it, people accepting it
gives it its value; if people won't accept it, then it is no more than
paper. In our current society we use money as a means of exchange.
Anyone who has no money will find it difficult to live. With money we
can buy convenience and comfort, but the extinction of dukkha (Suffering) is something no amount of money can buy."
12. The Practice Of Dhamma
I once asked why Dhamma is taught and
practised differently in different meditation centres, even though we
all have the Buddha in common as our original teacher.
Luangpor Teean replied, "This is quite normal. It
is said that even in the Buddha's time there were 108 different groups,
each one claiming that its teaching was correct and that the other 107
groups were following wrong views. We must use our intelligence and
consider carefully for ourselves. To be either gullible or sceptical
and of closed mind, each is equally misguided. Any way of practice that
leads to the extinguishing of dukkha (Suffering) is proper and
correct. As far as Dhamma itself is concerned, all who know its
actuality will have the same perception."
When somebody asked whether various forms of Dhamma
practice other than the one he taught were good or not, Luangpor
answered, "Good for them, but not for us."
13. Does Practising Insight Meditation Lead To Madness?
We once asked Luangpor Teean whether it was true, as some psychiatrists had charged, that practising vipassana (insight) meditation caused people to become mad.
Luangpor answered, "A person who doesn't know and
isn't truly familiar with his or her own mind as it actually is, that is
a mad person. Practising vipassana meditation is studying to know one's own real mind. If practising meditation ever does lead to madness, it is not vipassana."
14. Nibbana
Luangpor Teean told us of a conversation he
had once had with a layman who, after an act of making merit,
expressed the wish that his merit-making result in him entering nibbana (the extinction of Suffering) in the future.
Luangpor asked him, "When do you expect to arrive at nibbana?"
"After I have died," the villager replied.
"Do you really want to get to nibbana?" Luangpor inquired.
"Yes, I really want to get there."
Luangpor then said, "Well if that's the case then
you should die as soon as possible and then you'll reach nibbana very quickly."
The villager was bewildered: "But I don't want to die yet."
"But since you want to go to nibbana, why
don't you want to die quickly? This shows that you have misunderstood,"
Luangpor pointed out to the villager. "The Buddha never taught people
to go to nibbana when they had already died, but he taught living people to reach nibbana while still alive."
15. Why Did He Ordain?
Since apparently Luangpor Teean had
understood Dhamma while he was still a layman, why had he ordained as a
monk? "The monkhood serves as the institution representing or
symbolizing those who practise the Buddha's Teaching well, the true
Sangha," Luangpor explained. "Being a monk makes it much easier to
teach people about dukkha (Suffering) and its extinction."
16. A Rock Pressing Down The Grass
I once asked Luangpor Teean about the
usefulness of sitting practising concentration meditation. He replied
that this kind of meditation was widely practised before the time of
the Buddha. "Such meditation gives rise to a tranquil state of mind,
but that is only temporary. When we emerge from the concentrated state,
our mind is still subject to greed, anger and delusion, it has not
really changed. It is like placing a rock upon the grass. Even though
the grass under the rock may wither, as soon as it is exposed to
sunlight the grass will grow again. This is different from insight
meditation (vipassana), which gives rise to knowing and
understanding, to wisdom, the mind changing to a fundamentally better,
more normal condition."
17. Vessantara
We once asked about the case of Vessantara,
who is traditionally held up as the very model of the perfection of
generosity. Yet what he did seems to be an act of great
irresponsibility towards his wife and children. Is it true that his act
of giving away his family led to him being reborn as the Buddha?
Luangpor Teean answered, "The story of Vessantara
is a story that has been passed down through many, many generations. If
you think that it is true, then you should follow his example, and
give your wife and children to the labourers or farmers in order to
help them in their work, and thus you will perfect yourself and become a
Buddha. But let me present to you the following comparison: that what
you have with you now, what you are as bound to as to your children or
wife, are greed, anger and delusion: give them away, relinquish them
completely: are you able to understand this?"
18. Believing
Luangpor Teean always said that we should
neither believe something immediately nor reject it immediately: we
should consider and deliberate very carefully first, or put it to the
test, and then either believe it or not.
Luangpor remarked that the history of the Buddha
provides examples on this point. Angulimala was someone who believed
too readily. He always followed his teacher's instructions, and even
when ordered to kill a great number of people, he did so. On the other
hand we have the case of the recluse Upaka, who was the first person to
meet the Buddha after the Buddha's Awakening. Even though Upaka
recognized in the Buddha characteristics that aroused trust and
confidence, he was not willing to believe that the Buddha had become
Awakened by himself, and so went on his way, and missed the opportunity
to learn from the Buddha.
19. Those Who Understand His Teaching
We once asked Luangpor Teean about the
number of people who, after hearing him teach Dhamma or after having
been instructed by him, could understand his teaching. "Probably no
more than ten to fifteen percent," Luangpor answered. "This is quite
normal. A person who is developed will be ready and able to understand.
But most people interested in Buddhism are still firmly attached to
customary practices, such as the making of merit."
20. People Protect Morality / Morality Protects People?
Luangpor Teean often asked, "Why do we
observe moral precepts in a manner similar to taking care of a glass so
as to prevent it from breaking? Why don't we live and practise to have
morality, that is, the mind that is normal, truly in our lives?
Morality will then take care of us, rather than we having to worry
about looking after morality."
21. Merit
I asked Luangpor Teean, "Does making merit really give me merit?"
Luangpor asked in turn, "What do you understand merit to be?"
When I told him that I understood merit to be a
good outcome or destiny that we receive after we die, in exchange for
the good that we have done, he asked, "Have you ever heard the monks'
chant that lists the benefits of making the Kathina offering, that it
will lead to us reaching heaven where the sprites, numbering 500 or
1000 beings, will be our dedicated followers? Now consider the number
of temples that there are in Thailand. If there is a Kathina offering
every year in every temple, where could enough sprites be found for
everyone who made merit? We imagine in this way that monks are like
bank accountants responsible for calculating the interest owed to us
after we die, do we?"
I further inquired of Luangpor, "If this is so,
what is your view of the making of merit by giving material things, as
is generally done nowadays?"
He answered as follows: "Making merit by giving
material things is a good thing to do, but it is like husked rice, which
is of use only for growing seedlings. If we are to benefit from eating
rice, we must eat boiled or steamed rice, not uncooked or husked rice.
To be attached to making merit by giving material things in a
superstitious way is one form of delusion: to be lost in darkness, even
if in this case it is a white darkness.
"Merit at its highest, in its consummation, is to really know oneself, to be without dukkha (Suffering)."
22. Inflexible
I once invited Luangpor Teean to go to
teach a man whom I respected, a person who had strong faith in and
attachment to traditional forms of merit-making. When Luangpor returned
after meeting the man, I asked about their encounter.
"That man is inflexible," Luangpor responded, "a
person of closed mind. Have you read the history of the Buddha? When
the Buddha was newly Awakened, before he went to Benares to teach his
former companions, the Five Ascetics, he had thought to seek out his
former teachers, Alara Kalama and Uddaka Ramaputta, in order to teach
them the liberation he had attained, but then he came to know that both
these teachers had already died. This is something I have some doubt
about; since the Buddha-to-be had parted from his two teachers not so
long before, I am not certain whether their deaths were physical or
not: but what had certainly died were their minds."
23. Monastic Ranks
In the time of the Buddha there were no
such things as monastic ranks. Why, we asked Luangpor Teean, do we make
so much of hierarchy and rank in modern Thailand? Is it a good thing
or not? He answered, "Monastic rank is the creation and concern of
society. You could call it either good or bad, whichever you wanted to,
but we have to live in their society."
24. Can Studying Buddhism Make Somebody A Bad Person?
We once inquired why it was that some of
the men who ordained as monks, studied to a high level, and
subsequently left the monkhood, could later behave in evil ways, often
worse than ordinary people who had never ordained and studied Buddhism.
Luangpor Teean answered, "Such a person studies
only books, studies only theory, but never studies himself and
therefore never knows himself."
25. Bowing In Respect To The Orange Robe
I once mentioned to Luangpor Teean that it
is hard for us to know whether a monk really is a true monk or merely a
parasite upon the religion; we simply see someone with his head shaved
and wearing the orange robes, and we immediately pay respect.
Luangpor gave his point of view: "If we bow in
respect only to the orange robe itself, then when we pass through Sao
Ching Cha, where the whole length of the road is lined with shops
selling monks' requisites, wouldn't we have to bow to each and every
such shop, from one end of the road to the other?"
26. Auspicious
Luangpor Teean told us how on one occasion,
while leading the ceremonial chanting for auspiciousness in a
villager's house, he had asked for a very large bowl to use in place of
his small alms-bowl in the making of holy water, an integral part of
the ceremony.
When the chanting had been completed, and the water
in the bowl had been made into holy water, instead of sprinkling it
over the people present, as is customarily done, Luangpor took the
large bowlful of holy water and threw it all over the floor of the
house, saying, "Everybody, please join together and help to put things
in order, help to clean the floor: this is what is auspicious. Using
holy water merely to sprinkle upon ourselves, we might suffer allergic
reactions to the leaves floating in the water, break out in an itching
rash, and have to waste money on buying medicine to treat ourselves:
now how could something like that be auspicious!"
27. The Funeral Ceremony
Once we asked Luangpor Teean, "When we hold
a funeral ceremony, does the dead person benefit from the ceremony
that we perform for him?"
Luangpor answered, "The funeral ceremony is just a
tradition created by those who are still alive because they are greatly
perturbed by the death of a person. Whether the dead person will
benefit from the ceremony or not is something that will always be open
to doubt. But what is certain is that the officiating monks will
benefit. Do we think that the monks can fulfil the functions of
postmen?"
28. A Monk Bows To A Layperson
Luangpor Teean related how once, when he
was in Laos, he accepted an invitation from a villager to take part in a
ceremony where traditional chants for extending a person's lifespan
were to be performed for the villager's mother. But at the ceremony
Luangpor did not chant, so the sponsor did not offer him the usual
requisites.
Luangpor then explained to the villagers that in
order to extend the lifespans of our parents we must behave well
towards them -- it's not enough to merely invite the monks to chant, in
the hope that our parents will consequently live long lives. And he
then led the children in bowing to their parents for the first time, he
himself setting the example.
The villagers present at that time immediately
became very agitated, considering what Luangpor had done to be a
violation of tradition: they had never seen or heard of a monk bowing
to laypeople. Luangpor therefore explained to them, "When I led the
children to follow me in bowing to their parents to pay them respect, I
did not bow to the laypeople at all; rather I bowed to myself, because
I was capable of teaching people to understand the true way to
actually prolong life."
29. The Spirit House
I once asked Luangpor Teean about the
guardian spirit of the land one's house is built on, who is considered
to reside in the spirit house that we provide for it. Does, I wanted to
know, the spirit really have supernatural powers such that it can
either benefit or severely punish the person that owns the house?
"Just think," said Luangpor."If the guardian
spirit really does have supernatural powers, why doesn't it create a
house for itself, why doesn't it create its own food to eat, why does it
have to wait for people to build a house for it and to provide it food
in supplication? And the food given to it is always such a tiny
amount: would the spirit ever be able to satisfy its hunger?"
30. Buddhist Amulets
Before I got to know who he was, I met
Luangpor Teean at a time when I was deeply interested in Buddhist
amulets. With the purpose of requesting an amulet from him, I tried to
impress him by showing him a very special and valuable amulet that I
owned, boasting that my amulet was very ancient, having been made 700
years ago.
"What," he asked me, "is this amulet made of?"
I told him that it was earthenware, made of baked
clay that was extremely hard and the fine brown colour of tamarind
paste, and that it contained a rich abundance of various minerals.
Luangpor responded, very simply, "Earth of all
kinds originated at the same time as this planet came into being. Your
amulet is actually no more ancient than the soil we trod upon before we
entered this house."
Just that one statement alone made me free to take
that amulet from around my neck, relinquishing, with the highest
confidence, my attachment to such things.
When someone once asked if it was good to wear a Buddhist
amulet around one's neck, Luangpor replied, "It's good, but there is
something much better than wearing an amulet. Would you like that?"
Luangpor was on one occasion asked by a man whether the
amulet he owned really had the supernatural, miraculous power widely
attributed to it.
"Is its maker still alive?" Luangpor asked the man.
When informed that the amulet's maker was long
dead, the amulet having been passed down as an heirloom, Luangpor
commented, "Since even its maker himself has died, how can we
hope that this thing can help us to avoid death?"
31. Ordaining And Disrobing
I had to cut out almost the whole of
Luangpor Teean's stomach in order to remove the malignant tumor that
had developed there, so I subsequently advised him that he should eat
food in small quantities but at frequent intervals. Luangpor stated
that to do so would involve eating after midday, which would constitute
laxness in the Discipline and would invite gossip and censure; in such
circumstances he would prefer to disrobe, because it made no difference
to him whether he was a monk or not: his mind was stable and would
change no more.
32. "Do You Know Luangpor Teean?"
Luangpor related how one day, while he was
at Ramathibodi Hospital waiting for a session of radiotherapy, a man
seated nearby struck up a conversation with him, at an early point of
which he asked Luangpor whether he was acquainted with Luangpor Teean.
Luangpor replied, "Well, yes, I know him somewhat."
After they had discussed Dhamma for some time, the
man became suspicious and asked, "You are Luangpor Teean, aren't you?"
"Yes," Luangpor admitted.
33. The Concerns Of The Buddha
We once discussed the nature of the relics
of the Buddha, whether they were bone that had transformed itself to
crystal or merely burned bone. When asked for his opinion, Luangpor
Teean remarked, "The concerns of the Buddha are not our concerns. Our
concerns are not the Buddha's concerns. But the Buddha taught us that
we should know fully all that concerns us. When you really know about
yourself, whether the Buddha is present or not is immaterial."
34. The Awakened Individual
Luangpor Teean said, "As regards the body,
there is no difference between the Awakened individual and the ordinary
person. It is only in regard to the mind, to the nature and quality of
experience, that the Awakened individual is better off and
superior to the ordinary person."
35. Following The Way Of Others
We once asked Luangpor Teean why people,
despite nowadays studying to high levels and having much knowledge,
cannot solve the problem of their own suffering.
He replied, "Most people follow the way of other
people, they don't follow the path of their own mind and heart, so
things are as they are."
36. The Dead Can Be Of Little Use
Luangpor Teean said that the study and
practice of Dhamma needed to be pursued here and now. We shouldn't wait
until we arrive at death. "After we have died, we can do nothing for
ourselves, and our words and example can benefit others only a little.
It is while still alive that we can truly benefit ourselves and
others."
37. Abstaining From Eating Meat
I once asked Luangpor Teean whether
abstaining from eating meat would help one's practice of Dhamma. He
replied, "If we are to practise or to know Dhamma, it doesn't depend on
or concern what we eat or refrain from eating. Consider Prince
Siddhartha: in attempting to realize Dhamma he abstained not merely
from meat, he refrained from eating rice and drinking water until he
nearly died, yet this brought him no closer to knowing Dhamma.
Practising and knowing Dhamma is a matter of wisdom."
38. Attachment To Meditation Methods
Luangpor Teean once warned, "Attaching to a
technique or a method of practising meditation, no matter what
technique or method it might be, is like taking a boat to cross a river
and then, even though it has arrived at the opposite shore, refusing
to leave the boat, because of being caught up in a continuing
fascination with the boat and its engine."
39. Doing Good, Doing Bad
I once mentioned to Luangpor Teean that
some people doubt the truth of the old saying, "Do good and you'll
receive good in return, do bad and you'll receive bad in return."
He pointed out, "It is society that stipulates what
is to be regarded as good and bad. What is considered good in one
place may be condemned as bad in another. Rather we should establish a
new and more accurate understanding, thus: 'Do good, it's good; do bad, it's bad'."
40. Students
Luangpor Teean once classified people who
had been educated into two groups, and compared them as follows. In the
first group are those who know clearly or really know: they are wise,
and when they speak one can understand immediately. The second group
comprises those whose knowledge is a matter only of familiarity and
memorizing, so when they speak they will talk at great length and in a
way that is evasive and extravagant, or else they will cite the texts a
great deal in order to induce others to believe them: this is because
they don't really know the truth for themselves.
41. Past, Present, Future
Luangpor Teean always said that the past is
gone, incapable of being changed or rectified, while the future has
not yet arrived: whatever we do, it must be done in the present. If we
act well now, today will constitute a good past for tomorrow. And
tomorrow, when it comes, will turn out to be a good future for this day
in which we have already done good. It is useless to worry about
things that are past and cannot be put right and just as useless to
worry about things that have not yet happened: to worry about things
that cannot eliminate suffering in the only place it is found, in the
present.
42. The Resolution
According to the texts, just before his
Awakening the prince Siddhartha accepted food from the laywoman Sujata
and, having eaten, placed the tray in the nearby river and made the
following resolution: if he was to become fully Awakened, a Buddha, the
tray should float back against the current of the river. And it
happened that the tray did float back against the river's current. I
asked Luangpor Teean his opinion of this, since it seems to be contrary
to the way of nature.
Luangpor pointed out, "Everything must drift along
carried by the current of the river. But this story refers to going
against the current of the stream of thought as it pours forth. If we
were to look back to the source of thought, then we would know the
truth this story is pointing to."
43. Working With Awareness
Luangpor Teean constantly declared, "All of
us have duties and responsibilities that the society we live in
requires us to fulfil, and this is normal. Performing our duties with sati (sustained awareness of oneself) will produce results that are completely satisfactory, the best possible results."
44. The Lamplight
Towards the end of his life, when Luangpor
Teean's health was deteriorating, my wife expressed to him her deep
concern about the teaching of Dhamma: what would be the situation after
his death?
Luangpor responded, "You needn't worry about this
at all. As long as humanity exists, there will from time to time be
those that come to know Dhamma, because Dhamma is not a personal
possession that can be monopolized or owned. Dhamma was present long
before the Buddha's time, but the Buddha was the first to bring it out
to teach and propagate. An individual that knows Dhamma can be compared
to a lamp that lights up brightly in the darkness: one who is close
will see clearly, while those further away will see less clearly. After
a period of time the lamp's light must be extinguished, but then from
time to time the lamp will again be lit, again providing illumination."
45. With Whom Should We Study?
During Luangpor Teean's final
hospitalization at Samitivej Hospital, he remarked that now his illness
was very advanced all he himself needed to do was to maintain
awareness of his breathing, watching for when it would cease. I
therefore asked him quite directly, "When you are no longer available,
from whom do you recommend that we should study Dhamma in order to
obtain the best results?"
Luangpor replied, "Go and study Dhamma from
yourself: watching your own mind is by far the best thing to do."
· Translated from the Thai by Bhikkhu Nirodho |